Silken bed sheets, lying awake
Syrupy images, thinking of you
Yearning, imagining
Are you missing me too?
Dusty clouds, shadowy skies
My heart tears in two
Falling slowly to pieces
As I recall we’re through
I cry into my feathered pillow
Wet drops, early morning dew
Mascara black smudges
Who am I? What should I do?
Eyes stinging like acid
I see yours, a dazzling cobalt blue
My mind, tangled, wiry wool
Your actions unyielding, bamboo
I reach across the bed, an empty space
When, where, what, why, who?
Questions, doubts haunt me
Answers confused, responses too few, untrue
My mobile softly vibrates
Sweet breath sharply I drew
Look down at the messages
Your name lights up, a sigh, phew
Scrambling, reaching, scrunching my eyes
Joy hits me, wondrous world anew
Honeyed dreamy words envelope me
Our love, you and me, your review
I remember lovemaking, raw, deep, hungry
Perfumed passion, a poison-laced brew
Day, night, morning, afternoon, twilight
Our love seemed magnetic, undoubtedly true
And then too deep, a cutting knife
That’s not kind, your feelings askew
A slap, a punch, a kick of pain
Salty whimpers, wishes for intimacy new
My insides torn, wrecked
My physical being mangled you threw
You laughed, you tormented, you hurt
But always predictably another woo
And then an epiphany, I deeply ponder
With unseasoned clarity, an authentic view
Why would I full-circle back
To an angel-devil like you?
I think about me, only me
About my deepest colour, my hue
I’m bright, effervescent, a luminous star
But with you at best, I was inky blue
I clutch onto my aching soul
Urging it to make you taboo
My head and heart feuding
What you did was wholly undue
With renewed vigour, lying awake
Stained by the colourless imprint of you
I numb myself to your shape
Your turn forever to miss me now too
Thank you for reading my poetry today… if you’d like to read some more then you can download my collection of poetry called Sunshine After Rain here.
Until next week, Happy Reading, Happy Writing, Happy You!
With much love, Soulla xxx
